mural studies

workin' up some ideas for my community mural project...

some support

the corners were bending in
so i braced them with chopsticks
i keep trying the oils
but it's not clicking
i've turned off the computer and done some reading
i think i have an idea for the mural project

hihihi, a fellow lx3 user, tipped me off about a 1:1 upgrade
that's my eggplant on the left
and on the right
my neighbor's cuke growing through to our side of the fence
which i will eat
:O

protected

so i listened today,
i listened to that little voice,
i made these double layered covers for the flower drawings
so that i could safely return to oil
because i had an inkling that i might want to
i washed brushes that had been sitting for months
and then i tried
unfortunately,
not too successfully

scissors

this was hard

to get to the difficult places on these drawings requires some extreme measures
this was a bit scary,
all day i was resisting working on this,
an when i finally painted
it was a different flower than the one i had intended

things i made today

i did anything (and everything) that came into my head today

clearly it didn't amount to much

it was an awful studio day actually
filled with relentless self recriminations
which i call truths
it seems to have gotten a little better towards the end

about last night

whatever it was i was trying to shoot last night...
this is what is looked like today

continuum

endlessly
endlessly
talking about connection
and the lack of it

endlessly
endlessly
making drawings
that connect
or are connected

sometimes
it takes someone else
to put it together for you
i know now
what i have to try to do

skeleton

a quick sketch of the reenactment of nude with skeleton from today's visit
i think is one of the most successful of the live tableaux.
and
i bought some paper to experiment with
:)

daydreams

i think you could say
that i started this new work
with the idea that since i was feeling uncomfortable "painting"
i should approach these canvases more like making "drawings"
even though i was basically doing this with the smaller canvases a few months ago
it wasn't a conscious process
with these,
i am proceeding with a bit more purpose & awareness

synthesis

it's been a lot about making things work together
about finding the common ground
about erasing the barriers imposed by media

significance

trash

drawing


composite

extremely significant that this was my tweet a from today
and that these were my fotola posts from a year ago:

daily bread		animus

new year's resolution

last night | today

01.01.10 and i do have a resolution,
when i was little, i had an autograph book
and my mother wrote in it:
this above all, to thine own self be true
and that is what i am holding on to going into this next decade
i believe it is the single most important thing i can do for my work

about a week ago i mentioned a project i am doing with the Brooklyn Museum
it's part of a membership program,
so initially it won't be viewable to the general public
but it is going to start out with a request that people provide an image
of their new year's resolution
the drawing on the right is my first go at this

and below is a slideshow of december's flickr posts

new years eve

maybe not the most wonderful of photographs...
but these are the last paintings from 2010

if i look back on this decade
from the point of view of the studio
it was a time of tremendous growth for me

early on, in the aftermath of 9/11,
i founded theARTproject
which began my involvement with images on-line,
in the years that followed
my virtual life intensified
and at times it blended more seamlessly with my studio life
than my physical world did.

during this time,
i found a gallery
(or a gallery found me)
and i had 2 one woman shows in nyc;
my work had begun to mature
i felt i had a voice.

then in 2006,
i pulled up roots
left my home & studio of 25 years
and for 3 years i was untethered & unhappy

last year at this time things began to come together
i had built a new home for body & soul
and (significantly) 9 months later
(which coincided with the beginning of this blog)
i finally felt grounded again

it's been a journey to this new place
and i am so looking forward to what comes next
it has a lot to do with "merging" for me
the photo & the paint
the physical & the virtual

i wish you all love, happiness, peace, joy, health and all good things in 2010 and the decade to come

true love

to truly love
to truly give
there can be no conditions
there can be no expectations
how difficult this is
maybe not for a minute
or for an hour
but
to sustain this
day in
and
day out
requires true consciousness
as does everything else of value

life | art

and the deeper in you go
the stranger it can get

daily bread		animus

and this again too

another accordion book,
i love the connectedness of the images
just like with the "it looks like a month to me" project
i love that you absolutely can't judge what you have just done
because each page can never be seen
except as part of a whole
that doesn't exist yet
it forces one to trust in the process
all in all
re-inforcing a good habit
and it was an "re-" day
re-entering
re-defining
re-engaging
with my space
after a week of santa's workshop
and because i was a bit under the weather
i allowed myself that luxury
of wandering back
at my own pace

this again

saw a shift today
small
shift
love that

merging

i am experimenting with merging
merging the photo & the paint

suspicion

because today's oblique strategy
spoke so clearly to things already on my mind
i took it more as an oracle than a visual directive
and i know i have an uncomfortable situation to confront