i have not yet done with this what i need to

belies the heaviness

hard sometimes
to put things in words

estranged

another one of those days
where the studio picture i take (below)
doesn't really do it for me
and it feels like something else needs to be here
there are so many conflicting things in my head right now
about work/posting/growth
and i am a bit unnerved by how isolated i have become
there is nothing like going through a list of people that you used to know
to make it clear
how estranged you have become
it's not a bad thing
but it feels a bit sad

this is the 100th (and final) drawing of the grid project
it came off of the work that i am showing at sugar beginning this saturday
if you don't receive an email about it
don't be insulted
i am having a hard time with reaching out
(see above)

root

i am beginning to like this blog
it's beginning to feel like me
i am beginning to drift back home
i am beginning

onward ho

like this site,
which is in transition
this blog is a bridge between
fastforward30years
(otherwise known as 365days of me)
and
my next project
(tba)

so,
instead of a self portrait,
i will be posting an image a day "from the studio"
since i paint every day, even when i travel
i do have again, inherent in this subject matter
something that is always accessible to me
and i intend to interpret this loosely;
i might post paintings or drawings,
images from the past,
even a self portrait...
as far as making a daily project that has profound meaning;
my feelings about "studio"
are right up there in intensity
with my feelings about "self"

(i am also posting again on random thoughts)