yes, i am at it again

first off,
i am missing this space for writing...
with all the many blogs i have going
there isn't one that replaces the "journaling aspect"
that was inherent in this one
(and in fast forward 30 years before it)

i have started a new daily blog
(big surprise)
running away from home
initially i though it would just be photographs;
just cell phone snaps,
very random
very free
much more like t_l_v
and maybe not only 1/day
but now i am not sure
maybe it will need some text too...

what i do know is that i used to have a fairly clear idea
of who took which pictures;
each of my online presences has always had a very specific character
that for the most part, has felt clear to me.
lately this isn't true:
i can't figure out what to post where
and because of this,
some of my favorite images seem to go unposted

while this feels unsettling to me
maybe it's a good thing
it indicates change
it indicates questioning
and maybe,
maybe,
it means that some of these disparate aspects of my "self"
are beginning to merge

changes

over the past couple of months
i have been shifting the focus of my daily watercolor practice.

for years
it has revolved around 5 journals:
work journal
left handed
life(s) lesson(s)
starting w/(a) line
daily bread
with the result that i have literally 100s of them,
probably close to 1000
and this creates all sorts of issues
with storage being one of them
and the difficulty of showing them being another

and then there is the production of them
since michael rogers stopped manufacturing them
i have had to supply the paper and have them custom made.

i usually make changes to my process in a fairly ritualistic way;
usually on the first of the month,
but last year i started a major watercolor project
(it looks like a month to me)
on the 15th
and lately i have found that i am phasing out the journals
slowly
over a period of time.

now, there are aspects of the exercises
that these journals formalize
which i don't want to lose;
and
i won't give up "journaling" altogether
but
i have so many other daily projects that i keep starting
that i need some flexibility
so the process is shifting:
left handed is taking place in the daily bread journals
life(s) lesson(s) are going to be on single sheets of paper
starting w/(a) line tends to be taken care of by the new projects
work journal; which has been with me the longest, will stay

wow
i've been thinking about this for months
and this is the first time i've realized a solution

this again

saw a shift today
small
shift
love that

thanksgiving

working at the window of my brother's house
brings me back to those days
painting on the beach
meditating on the horizon line
getting lost in the hugeness of the sea and the sky
trying to capture the vastness
while getting seduced by the infinite movement of the waves
there is a sense of pure well being
connected with this
and there is much to be thankful for

source material

yeah, i'm just a little psyched
got tickets to this & this today

bone

and
after about 3 months
of drawing myself for life(s) lessons
i've taken a break from that as well
i got tired of focusing
on how lopsided my face is